The land of make believe

To live in a place where it is comfortable and homely, is to share the same values with the place. A place we live can be stressful or the contrary depending on the congruence of our ideals and values with that of the place. This is why some people may find his 'home' land in a far away place thousands of miles away. Some people, say, terrorists in Hamburg may find Afghanistan much closer to their hearts than where they are residing. An ardent believer of pacifist resistance may regard parts of spiritual India as an ultimate abode. Some people who believe in the importance of human development may desire to escape the grip of extremism in their homeland and as such, has no attachment whatsoever with it apart from his physical presence in it.

He believes he belongs to a community which rarely exists, if not at all, in his residence and that it transcends physical boundaries.


If the land of make believe
Is inside your heart it will never leave
There's a golden gate where the fairies all wait
And dancing moons, for you

Close your eyes and you'll be there
Where the mermaids sing as they comb their hair
Like a fountain of gold you can never grow old
Where dreams are made, your love parade.

Che bella giornata vero?

To express emotions on the beauty of certain things, we can use the term 'nante' but we cannot use the normal 'masu' form of the verb at the end. This means that we have to end the sentence with either desho (formal) or daro (informal).

Nante kirei na hito nan desho! (How beautiful she is!)

Nante kanashii eiga nan daro! (What a sad movie it is!)

Nante kawaii akachan nan desho! (How cute the baby is!)


That's it for now.

Los dos mundos differentes en lo mismo ser

The two different worlds residing in the same body. Both contradicting each other. Such is the nature of the internal conflict within. Es dolor. muy, muy. It fashions, shapes the mind, the preoccupation with meaningless struggle. It moulds a person into maturity regardless of whether the time suits the self. He is forced into a world he chose yet he did not. For the mind is right at that moment in time. Maturity? Shit. This is constant, ongoing, ever there. He doesn't care too much about the moralistic world for he is in a deeper moralistic struggle than the world can ever imagine. Mind yourself before minding others. Do justice to yourself, in order to be capable of justice towards others. State of the moment? Perhaps. No lo se.

"When and if" nihongo de

Watashi ga chisakatta toki nihon e ikimashita. (When I was small, I went to Japan)

In this context, toki takes the form of "when".

Watashi ga eiga o mitte iru toki nemukatta. (When I was watching the movie, I was sleepy)
Anata ga igirisu de benkyo shita toki sabishikatta ka (When you were studying in the UK, were you lonely?)

"If" in Japanese takes the form of verb + tara.

Taiko ga owattara, owarimasu. (If the drums stop, it will end)

or

Pizza o tabetara, tai e ikimasu. (If you eat pizza, I'll go to Thailand)

Kino kore o watashi no tomodachi ni naraimasu.

Moichido to Moikkai wa onaji desu.

Ja, ganbatte.

Construction of the creative process

The relationship between the Creator and creations is a very interesting one, especially with regard to us human beings. How for example, we embody the essence of our Creator (al-'ayan al-thabitah), and hence the possibility of a dynamic relationship, leads us to the very core of the process of human thought and its subsequent intellectual activities.

God is the sole agent of the creative process which means only He can create. This being the case, when we talk about human creations, it is only possible by the extension of God's mercy (rahmat) and His Divine energy which enables a person to create. The human soul is a microcosmic representation of the realm of being ('alam). Whatever the processes and structures of the universe as a whole, is happening right inside the individual person. The structure of the human soul consists of 3:

1. Al-sirr (the spiritual heart)

This is the seat of Divine spirit. All transmissions of God's divine energy will be chanelled here. The cultivation of this part of the human soul will enable a person to have stronger closeness to God. This being the case, there is a feature within us that resembles that of the creator, al-'ayan al-thabitah (the immutable essence). We embody a part of God's immutable essence, albeit in a potential state (uncultivated) because we don't know the existence of it. On the contrary, God's immutable essence is constantly active and creating many things.

2. Al-nafs al-natiqah (the intellectual soul)

This is the soul which regulates the transmission of Divine energy into the spiritual heart. All the human intellectual activities occurs here.

3. Al-nafs al-hayawaniyah (the carnal soul)

This is the soul which creates imagination and emotion. Like animals, we possess the the carnal soul. Upon God's mercy, He channels His energy into the spiritual heart in the form of general knowledge. So, in order for the knowledge (which are still in a metaphysical potential form) to materialize into particular knowledge, it has to go through the carnal soul which processes it into the form of images and hence assumes a physical material form in our thought.

This process is very important in understanding how we create or invent things. In the case of literature, for example, if the author wants to write about the idea of kingship, he must first have a general idea of a king. God illuminates his spiritual heart enabling him to conjure up the idea of a king. But this idea is without form. His carnal soul then translates this idea into the form of images. He then creates a physical shape of a king in his mind, and makes comparisons with images which already exist in his mind. King is as brave as a lion, as generous as the sea. By this process, the general idea of a king takes material form. But these images (king, lion, sea) are all in raw form, unorganised and disorderly in our thought. They are illuminations of images, which appear randomly in our thought without series. The intellectual soul then regulates, controls, organises these images in our mind enabling the author to write a literature about a king in a structured way. Such is the construction of the process of creation.

Ramadhan

Ramadhan is here! Wish all the fasting ones good luck. Sahur is always an important part of the whole process. But the content of it greatly differs between Malaysia, and other countries, say, Egypt. I remember once during the MIVP (Malaysia International Visitors Programme), in which I participated, it was during Ramadhan. There were quite a number of muslims in the programme. Mandarin Oriental, the hotel they stayed in, arranged a daily sahur package for them. One of the Egyptian participant told me that he was quite shocked when he was sent a whole tray of rice, chicken, vegetables, fish etc. He did not know what it was for. Sahur in Egypt, so I was told, is very decent. You have some fruits, milk, or something light. But that's it. Then you go to sleep. Breaking fast is the same thing. You have all these stalls (at the pasar juadah) selling a mountain of things, from cakes to whole dishes. And you can see hundreds of people swarming these places before breaking fast time. On the upper end, we see a blooming 'Ramadhan' business. All sorts of hotels and restaurants offer Ramadhan buffetts to entice customers. And it works, all the time. Most muslims that I talk to would be surprised. For them, Ramadhan is a personal thing, and is often celebrated with the family. Eating out is never the rule, it's always in the cozy home with homemade dishes.

I have a strong feeling that this reflects the society, their sense of solidarity, and of course, the awareness of gastronomic concerns. Malaysia, in this regard, is way behind. Especially on the latter, I think we need to have this public awareness going around. The importance of eating good food, of not eating nasi lemak at 3am at Ravi's etc. It'll take time though, slowly but surely.

Ki o sukete

Japanese adjectives are divided into two: i-adjectives and the na-adjectives. It is very important to know how to change these adjectives into the past tense and better still, negative past tense.

For i-adjectives

Past:

e.g. chisai (small) = chisakatta (was small)
takai (expensive) = takakatta (was expensive)
semai (narrow) = semakatta (was narrow)

Now, to make it negative past:

e.g. isogashii (busy) = isogashikunakatta (was not busy)
chikai (near) = chikakunakatta (was not near)
sabishii (lonely) = sabishikunakatta (was not lonely)

For na-adjectives

Past:

e.g. nigiyaka (lively) = nigiyaka deshita (was lively)
yuumei (famous) = yuumei deshita (was famous)
shizuka (quiet) = shizuka deshita (was quiet)

Past negative:

e.g. juyoo (important) = juyoo dewa arimasen deshita (was not important)
genki (well) = genki dewa arimasen deshita (was not well)
hima (free) = hima dewa arimasen deshita (was not free)


I have a feeling for the colloquial na-adjective past negative, we can simplify it further and not use these long sentences. I think we can truncate it by using the simple negative, and then change it to past. Thus, for genki, we can say genki dewa nakatta. Or for shizuka, shizuka dewa nakatta. I hope somebody can verify this for me.

Ganbatte ne!

Orchestras and the days that were

Too fast. It was too fast a tune for me to enjoy. The violins are fantastic, the cellos following well behind, but it was way too fast. I felt like I was in a horse chase in England during the medieval times. I am referring to the Orchestra of the Age of Enlightenment, a neo-classical orchestra group which plays classical tunes in a 'new' way sort of. This group is an Associate Orchestra for the Royal Festival Hall in London (nearest tube: Embankment). They are having a series of performances in the hall during the whole of autumn. They will perform Bach, Mozart, Beethoven, Vivaldi, Mendelssohn and more. So, there I was, in a medieval suit, drifting away as the music played. I 'succumbed to oblivion' not less than twice in the hall.

The worst sin they committed was to downplay the violin. It was not crying as it should be, rather it was making this fast screeching sounds. It was playing well but the harmony with the other period instruments were not there. The bassett clarinet was good, although it played at intervals when all others were silent. I thought the soprano scene was good, the lady had a marvellous voice but unfortunately, it did not go too well with the background tune. Overall, it was not quite what I expected.

But looking at the orchestra players, their smiles, their preparations on stage, their tunings reminded me so much when I was a koto performer back in KL. It was a great feeling to play together in a group. The applause you get, the satisfaction after playing the tunes, the chilling out after performances.....such sweet memories. I really want to continue playing but there isn't any Koto music society that I know of in London. Maybe, after my masters, I'll probably further my studies in Japan and continue there. My Koto teacher and Prof. Leong told me the chances of getting a scholarship given my situation (the Japanese language and koto experience), is very high. The Japanese are peculiarly excited about people learning their language and culture to such an extent. Anyway, it's a probability. We'll see.

Toastmasters

My friend Zarina just won the division level Toastmasters on evaluation. Actually, I joined the thing for about 2 times (I think). But it's just not my cup of tea lah. I'm a bit on the malu side. I have this deep fear of public speaking. My ideas just won't come up on stage, or even in presentations. So, to present, like I did last week and also next week in the seminar, I have to prepare my speech, not points. That's the gravity of the situation. But, as Zarina once said to me, it needs practice. She was a shy bird too way back but I guess she managed to overcome the mental barrier. Well, we'll see. Monday, I'm going to the Mozart concert in Prague at the Royal Festival Hall with the SOAS Mature Students Society (mature???). I'm gonna meet my Koto teacher's son in SOAS this Thursday. Namae wa Hiroyuki desu. Need to practise my Japanese, getting rusty.

Tuna sandwich

I had tuna sandwich with fried onions and courgettes for lunch last Friday. It was good. I audited a course called 'Southeast Asia on Screen", and on that day, we watched Platoon (Charlie Sheen, Willem Dafoe, etc.). After the good sandwich, we had a discussion on the movie we have watched. I was suprised that the discussion went very deep. Never expected that it could relate a lot on Christian symbologies and doctrine. You don't learn much about the Vietnam war from this movie, that's for sure. What you'll find is a story within a story, an american tale of the Vietnam war. It was a good film though.